I'm extremely weary. Early sobriety is very difficult to live with. The behavior is off. The emotions are up and down. I swing between worry and fear and empathy and regret. I can't decide when to love unconditionally or when to draw the stiff line in the sand.
My husband says that I just need to drug test and love him. Either way. I guess he is right. My son is trying and I know that. It's just that he has so much lost. He has a battle which has started from behind.
Today I pray for perseverance. I pray for guidance. I pray for blinders. And, I pray for the soul of Henry.
My husband says that I just need to drug test and love him. Either way. I guess he is right. My son is trying and I know that. It's just that he has so much lost. He has a battle which has started from behind.
Today I pray for perseverance. I pray for guidance. I pray for blinders. And, I pray for the soul of Henry.
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I'll be praying for your son. And for you. He's on the right track.
thank you...a prayer for your son as well
Early sobriety is really tough on parents. Myself, i didn't do the drug testing. We could pretty much tell if he was high anyway. After about a year I wrote about what I learned in dealing with my son's sobriety. Here is a link if you are interested. All I know is it is as hard for us as it is him. They really do have a big hole to get out of but remember it is his hole. He can make it if he wants.
http://parentsofanaddict.blogspot.com/2011/11/parents-and-recovery.html
You are not alone. I needed to read this today. I am praying too. :o)
"Praying for blinders"...funny, but not funny. I get it.
Thinking of you, and knowing you are doing your level best.
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