Friday, October 19, 2012

The Process

Relapse is a part of this process.  It is a part that hurts.  I feel like I did after my first c section and soon to have my second one.  The feelings of dread and the fatigue of the pain return to me in memorable waves.  Today I sit here and write the words quickly for fear that if I wait, I will lose the courage to write them.  I want to be honest.  Honesty is my defense against the devil. Honesty and prayer.

I'm waiting on a call from a rehab facility because they are checking my insurance benefits.  I wait in numbed prayerful silence.  I've begun a novena to St. Jude today.  How ironic that it began today.  Our Lord is compassionate.

Today I am thankful for a loving God.  I am thankful for paid insurance.  I am thankful for good friends.  I pray for healing and recovery for my son.  I say a prayer for all of your children and I ask a prayer for the soul of Henry.


Anonymous said...

Just wanted to let you know that you've been on my mind and in my prayers lately. You're not alone.


beachteacher said...

oh Hattie...I'm also starting a St Jude novena tomorrow...I understand

Hattie Heaton (Mom of an Addict) said...

Thanks guys heading to detox in a few minuttes. Then with great hope a 30- 90 day program.

Anonymous said...

i'm so sorry to read sorry....numbing, that dreaded feeling; it truly is the worst feelings.....i'm so so and your family are in my prayers...if possible could you keep us posted?

Terri said...

Saying a prayer right now!