Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Day 15

 "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town.

I remember feeling such relief when our son entered rehab.  I imagined him detoxing and coming home all shiny and new and perfect.....(yes I know, I am a fool idealist).  Identifying a problem is huge but addiction is but a symptom of a problem.

Addiction, I have read is merely a method of anesthetizing pain.  The real task is uncovering the source of the pain and dealing with it.  I read more and more the importance of "attachment" in healing those with a host of different mental and emotional problems.

Learning to really love is my new challenge.  Today I pray for understanding to learn to love better.  I pray for healing for all of our addicted loved ones and I say a prayer for Henry.

You learn to speak by speaking, to study by studying, to run by running, to work by working; in just the same way, you learn to love by loving.
~St. Francis De Sales


Lou said...

I had no idea how long it takes just for the mind to clear..almost a year in our case! Starting to pick up the pieces and live like a non addict is a daily challenge.

I will tell you this--watching the small changes, the steady progression is sooo cool.

Have Myelin? said...

My boyfriend is an alcoholic- sober for 21 years. He told me it took him 5 years to quit dreaming about alcohol.

I can't imagine that kind of challenge.