Looking for Hope....

It's been a while since I've been on here.  I've spent a lot of time lately with friends and family and it has been a blessing.  I went to my hometown for a brunch and reception for two different nephews who have or are getting married.  This trip back was a reminder of a lot of the pain of my growing up years and the problems that addiction brought into my life during those years. 

I get nervous seeing those bad feelings.  It makes me fear that I will never be able to escape the pain of this disease.  Couple that uneasiness with the fact that I keep reading about more deaths from overdose and I feel weary. 

I am blessed.  I have so much to be grateful for.  I am realizing that I'm eating less healthy.  I'm spending less time in prayer and meditation.  Perhaps that is the direction that I need to focus my attention on. 

There is a blog that I used to read that used to really help ground my thinking.  It is inactive now but I thought about it and went there for a visit.  The last post has a top ten list that you can go here to read.  I found so much truth in it that I thought I'd mention it.  Just trying to keep praying......